Bit of a late weekly update
Meant to post over the weekend, but that didn't end up happening. That's ok, I still wanted to post about how my week went. This week felt overwhelming, as I really started to feel the weight of everything I have to juggle to maintain a healthy balance in my lifestyle. Every time I cross a boundary that I told myself I wasn't going to cross anymore, I feel like I'm betraying myself, and that I'm one step closer to losing myself like it already happened before. I never want to compromise my nutrition, sleep, or mental health just to perform in the way I feel is expected of me, because in the past those expectations were just impossible to reach, and I don't ever again want to place my worth on my academic performance. For some reason, tapping back into productivity mode this week felt unbearable. Something in me rejected that state, and I think that’s why it’s been impossible to focus. The day slips by, and I realize I haven’t even done half of what I wanted to....